A great new girl and a not so great new outbreak

Mood: very happy, slightly scared, a bit itchy (okay itchy is not really a mood but you get the idea)

I went for a date with a girl last tuesday and so it turns out she is fantastic. Barely more than a day has passed since then without seeing her. Just her presence seems to twist time around so that it always seems to suddenly be very late and I never achieve much more than to get lost staring into her beautiful green eyes. What is even better is that she seems to feel the same way about me. It all sounds great no? The hard bit is that I know that I have to tell her about my itchy friend and frankly, as you might expect, I am just a little bit scared. I know all the 'if she is the right one then she will accept it' stuff but I guess I may be about to find out just what it means to be a man with herpes.

I have had a lot I wanted to say in the last couple of weeks but I have not known how to say it - and so I have not posted. I am having another outbreak at the moment - I was feeling it a bit at the start of the weekend but it has developed in the last day. I am feeling a bit down about this because I seem to have had outbreaks at least every 2 or 3 months in the last year. I am going to see the doctor tomorrow to see if it might be worth trying some supressive therapy. Fortunately my symptoms have never been really bad but I find it hard to deal with on such a regular basis. This seems even harder now that I would just like to relax and spend more time with this amazing girl.